I dunno MG ... hopefully ...
it's just that I got to decide what I really want to do with my
life ... I'm not keen to get into the rat race, wherever that is
... perhaps I'm searching for something meaningful ? ...
oh well ... of course ... it's a luxury to be able to talk and
think about such things ... before one gets saddles with mortgages,
car payments, wifey and kids, eh ? .. 
